The Start

Wow, I have well and truly done it now!
I've never had a blog before, and never set myself such a challenge of 12WBT. Ok, that's a lie. I successfully managed to study my law degree full time whilst working full time - it took me 4 years and 19 days to prove to my beloved that I could do it, we even made a move interstate in that time and settled into new jobs - so if I can take 4 years out of my life to supposedly improve myself, why the hell does 12 weeks scare the living daylights out of me?! I'm always happy to improve my brain, but the truth is I'm just plain lazy when it comes to fitness, health and nutrition.

In the seven years I have been with my husband, I've always been 'going to do' this diet, or go to the gym or some other craze and it has always been just a craze and hubby has seen that, so it really is no surprise that when I mentioned the 12WBT to him he just rolled his eyes, laughed and said I'd be better off spending the cash on our son. Grrr! I knew that would be his reaction but it still hurt because I know he is right - I have never seen anything through that involves such a life change. Don't get me wrong, hubby is my rock and we support each other through everything (except my fitness - he's given up on that one!)

What I need to do is summon up my fighting spirit - the one I use at work to fight for justice for my clients, the one I have always used (even as a child!) whenever someone has told me I can't do something, or I can't have something. I have always found a way around it. My laziness just stops me from doing this for myself.
I am so full of excuses - There is a gym that keeps taking $13 out of my bank every week - I may aswell be donating the money to a good cause. I signed up there because they have a child minding service - GREAT! I can go there and my little boy can be looked after while I work out - ummmm.... no, this little ducky keeps finding excuses, the best one is that the child minding times clash with his naps, or he hasn't had enough immunisations, or I don't know the staff. So I'm cancelling the gym membership and I'm going to do this without a gym. I live on a hill for crying out loud! Also, I pay some exorbitant rates to the Cairns Regional Council who so very nicely put on free fitness classes along the esplanade and have a very beautiful 2.5km walkway the length of the esplanade - and guess what? the fitness classes don't clash with little ones naps, so I am out of excuses really - other than it's a 13km drive to get there!

So, it would appear that I have found some of that fighting spirit in taking the plunge and signing up for 12WBT round two. I then found some more by going for a walk last night - made even more amazing by the fact that we live on a steep hill with an even steeper driveway. I managed to push the pram up the hill, but gave up when we got to the driveway!

So that is the next goal - not only to push the pram up the hill, but get my little boy safely inside the house at the end of it! Then off to some classes at the esplanade (so I can at least get some value out of my ridiculous rates!) and when I go back to work, the classes won't clash, I can still take the little one and the excuses should be long gone.

So here is The Start - I've done it, I've made the investment, made the commitment and I'm not letting hubby win this one. This is for my family, so my little boy can grow up in a house where nutrition and fitness are important, where fast food is no quick fix because hubby or I 'can't be bothered'. My only feelings of guilt right now are that I haven't told hubby exactly what I'm up to - he wasn't impressed when I floated the idea. All he knows is that I'm wanting to get fitter and healthier, that I want to lose 17kg by the end of the year, and while I feel a little bit guilty, I'm a bit giggly about my little secret - I'll show him! Just like I did when he told me I'd never stick with my degree, that I wasn't disciplined enough - there's that red rag to a bull competition that's going to help me stick with this!